Sabotage

Cut by my own words;

Ignored by my own ears;

Drowned by my own laughter;

Blinded by my own eyes.

Alas! I declare myself as an enemy!

Dig deeper and you will see,

How the innocent is not really so;

How crudeness could express the best thought.

Am I not worthy of myself?

Dig deeper and be surprised.

My greatest rival don't be deceived.

Stabbed by my very own hand;

Patched up by the very same ones.

Oh how I seek honesty

and yet lie to myself.

You are my thoughts yet you are not.

Why have you come to war

 with nothing but your bare hands?

A gun against your heart;

A knife against my throat.

See me as a great adversary.

For it is how I see you.

Am I not worth it?